My mother told me while growing up everything happens for a reason. I was baptized Roman Catholic. God has a plan in everything he does for us. My life has been a roller coaster; But then again everyone has their ups and downs. No two lives are alike, We are all on our own individual journey.
Death leaves a heartache no one can fix. That moment you realize that your loved one is gone, and there is nothing that change it. My life changed forever on April 27th, 2015. That day was the day he left this earth and earned his angel wings. My loving husband Nathan passed away. I'll never forget the moment I woke up and within that moment my life changed forever. During the hustle of the day, and the turmoil, Nathan was gone and there was nothing I can do; nothing will ever be the same, my normal was gone. Eventually I will find a new normal, but it will never be the same.
That moment etched in my mind when I knew he was gone, gone forever. We had a life planned, a family to raise. Collectively we had 8 children. He had 5 when we got together, I had 1 child. We had 2 children together. We had a surprise child, our miracle, I was 30 weeks pregnant when their dad left this earth forever.
Life is not easy after a loss. Everyone grieves differently, and no one can tell you to stop grieving. Death effects everyone differently. The grief you feel is different from losing a spouse to losing a child. There is no time limit on grieving. Don't ever let anyone make you feel bad for grieving.
Normal will never be the same. Your life will be turned upside down. But you will feel like your falling, but you will rise again...Stronger then ever...With fire inside you.
